15 August 2017 @ 11:54 pm
Nick has announced he is stressed out by bookkeeping and doesn't want to do it while he's in school. The bookkeeper has tanked.

So instead of waiting for them to go through another manager or two in the Starbucks department, I'm asking to be made manager over there (because then I can bookkeep.)

... Okay then. I guess I'll go ahead and work on getting a new car. And if this happens, I will be kicking my dad and brother out of the apartment within the next three months.




Jordan came by today to buy his Stella Artois (yes, that's right! He's stopped sending co-workers!). Whenever I see him I feel like the rough equivalent of what a computer would probably feel (if it could) trying to run 800GB with only 400GB of hard-drive.

Like, let's break my brain down in all the directions it spins whenever Jordan comes around:

1. Anger, because he was King of Bailing.

2. Sad, because he's not intentionally King of Bailing, it's just a symptom of being a very insignificant friend. So there's sadness about unrequited sexual/romantic feelings but then also about unrequited regular 'ole platonic, friendly feelings.

3. SEXUAL FEELINGS.

4. REVULSION OF SEXUAL FEELINGS (I have a sexual dysfunction, so sexual feelings also come with revulsion. FUN. Like, to clarify: Even if Jordan tomorrow walked up to me and wanted to actually do anything sexual, I don't know what I'd do other than spontaneously combust from the intense simultaneous arousal/revulsion. I think I would literally die. I honestly think I would explode from the contradictory feelings. I've made enough progress that I have lost enough anxiety to try dating again. But there's still a lot of revulsion to work through.)

5. INTENSE HAPPINESS. Because Jordan is my favorite person to talk to and I feel very safe around him. Which is NOT supported by evidence, but again: Starbucks history.

6. INTENSE EMBARRASSMENT: See 1-5.

7. CUDDLE ENVY. (Which I literally feel about just about anyone I have any emotional attachment to at all right now, to be fair, but like, HOLY SHIT, I just want to curl next to someone and sleep like a cat so bad.)

8. Sadness about us never doing anything we ever planned and general irritation that he kept bailing on things but he still can come in and grab beer every week.

9. Loneliness. Because of said bailing and wishing I had people in general who were part of a tight-knit group where we did adventurous/outdoor stuff together. Jessica and my other friends are great, but they'll never SCUBA or sky-dive.

I literally felt sick a short while after interacting with him. This list isn't in any particular order, either. My point is my mind is in so many places.

Ugh. Well. He's moving back to England, anyway.
 
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15 August 2017 @ 08:33 pm
ɴᴀᴍᴇ: ᴀʟɪᴄɪᴀ ᴊᴏᴀɴ ᴏʀ ᴀᴊ
ᴀɢᴇ: 25
ʟᴏᴄᴀᴛɪᴏɴ: ʟᴀs ᴠᴇɢᴀs, ɴᴠ.
 
ɪɴᴛᴇʀᴇsᴛs ᴀɴᴅ ʜᴏʙʙɪᴇs: I'ᴍ ʀᴇᴀʟʟʏ ɪɴᴛᴇʀᴇsᴛᴇᴅ ɪɴ ʀᴏʟᴇᴘʟᴀʏɪɴɢ ᴀɢᴀɪɴ ᴀғᴛᴇʀ ᴛᴇɴ ʏᴇᴀʀs ʙᴇɪɴɢ ᴏᴜᴛ ᴏғ ᴛʜᴇ ɢᴀᴍᴇ. Yɪᴋᴇs! I ᴀʟsᴏ ʟᴏᴠᴇ ᴛᴏ ᴅʀᴀᴡ, ᴡʀɪᴛᴇ, ᴀɴᴅ ᴅᴀʙʙʟᴇ ɪɴ ᴘʜᴏᴛᴏɢʀᴀᴘʜʏ. I'ᴍ ᴀʙᴏᴜᴛ ᴛᴏ ɢᴏ ʙᴀᴄᴋ ᴛᴏ sᴄʜᴏᴏʟ ғᴏʀ ɢʀᴀᴘʜɪᴄ ᴅᴇsɪɢɴ. I ʟᴏᴠᴇ ᴜɴᴅᴇʀɢʀᴏᴜɴᴅ/ᴀʟᴛᴇʀɴᴀᴛɪᴠᴇ ᴄᴏᴍɪx ᴀɴᴅ ᴀ ғᴇᴡ ᴏғ ᴍʏ ғᴀᴠᴏʀɪᴛᴇ ᴀʀᴛɪsᴛs ɪɴᴄʟᴜᴅᴇ Rᴏʙᴇʀᴛ Cʀᴜᴍʙ, Hᴇʀɴᴀɴᴅᴇᴢ Bʀᴏᴛʜᴇʀs, ᴀɴᴅ Cʜᴀʀʟᴇs Bᴜʀɴs. I ᴀʟsᴏ ʀᴇᴀʟʟʏ ʟᴏᴠᴇ Bᴀᴛᴍᴀɴ's ᴠɪʟʟᴀɪɴs ᴍᴏʀᴇ ᴛʜᴀɴ Bᴀᴛᴍᴀɴ ʜɪᴍsᴇʟғ, ʜᴀʜᴀ.

ᴍᴏᴠɪᴇs: Pʜᴀɴᴛᴏᴍ ᴏғ ᴛʜᴇ Pᴀʀᴀᴅɪsᴇ, Rᴏᴄᴋʏ Hᴏʀʀᴏʀ, Dᴏᴏᴍ Gᴇɴᴇʀᴀᴛɪᴏɴ, Dᴇᴀᴛʜ Pʀᴏᴏғ, Gʜᴏsᴛ Wᴏʀʟᴅ, Pᴜʟᴘ Fɪᴄᴛɪᴏɴ, Dᴇᴛʀᴏɪᴛ Rᴏᴄᴋ Cɪᴛʏ, Hᴇᴅᴡɪɢ ᴀɴᴅ ᴛʜᴇ Aɴɢʀʏ Iɴᴄʜ, Pʀɪsᴄɪʟʟᴀ: Qᴜᴇᴇɴ ᴏғ ᴛʜᴇ Dᴇsᴇʀᴛ, A Gᴏᴏғʏ Mᴏᴠɪᴇ, Aᴜsᴛɪɴ Pᴏᴡᴇʀs, Sᴏ I Dᴀᴛᴇᴅ ᴀɴ As Mᴜʀᴅᴇʀᴇʀ, Mᴀsᴋ, Rᴇsᴇʀᴠᴏɪʀ Dᴏɢs, Kɪʟʟ Bɪʟʟ, ᴇᴛᴄ.

ᴛᴠ sʜᴏᴡs: Tʜᴇ Oғғɪᴄᴇ, Aᴍᴇʀɪᴄᴀɴ Hᴏʀʀᴏʀ Sᴛᴏʀʏ (ᴀʀᴇ ʏᴏᴜ ᴇxᴄɪᴛᴇᴅ ғᴏʀ ᴛʜᴇ ɴᴇxᴛ sᴇᴀsᴏɴ??), Pᴀʀᴋs & Rᴇᴄ, Bʟᴀᴄᴋ Mɪʀʀᴏʀ, Fᴜᴛᴜʀᴀᴍᴀ, Sɪx Fᴇᴇᴛ Uɴᴅᴇʀ, Mᴀᴅ Mᴇɴ, Cʜᴇᴡɪɴɢ Gᴜᴍ, ᴜɴɪᴛᴇᴅ sᴛᴀᴛᴇs ᴏғ ᴛᴀʀᴀ, ᴀɴᴅ sᴏ ᴏɴ!

ᴍᴜsɪᴄ: Pɪxɪᴇs, Tʜᴇ Gʀᴏᴡʟᴇʀs, Tʜᴇ Cʀᴀᴍᴘs, Tʜᴇ Mᴜᴍᴍɪᴇs, Tʜᴇ Sʜɪᴛʙɪʀᴅs, Sʜᴀɴɴᴏɴ ᴀɴᴅ ᴛʜᴇ Cʟᴀᴍs, Pᴏʀᴛɪsʜᴇᴀᴅ, Sʟᴇᴀᴛᴇʀ Kɪɴɴᴇʏ, Jᴏʏ Dɪᴠɪsɪᴏɴ, 80's/90's ʀ&ʙ ᴀɴᴅ ʜɪᴘ-ʜᴏᴘ, ᴀɴᴅ ʟɪᴛᴇʀᴀʟʟʏ ᴀʟᴍᴏsᴛ ᴀɴʏᴛʜɪɴɢ. Nᴏᴛ ᴇᴠᴇɴ ɢᴏɴɴᴀ ᴘᴜʟʟ ᴛʜᴇ "ᴇᴠᴇʀʏᴛʜɪɴɢ ʙᴜᴛ ʀᴀᴘ ɴ ᴄᴏᴜɴᴛʀʏ" ᴄᴜᴢ I'ᴠᴇ ʟɪᴋᴇᴅ ᴀ ʙɪᴛ ᴏғ ʙᴏᴛʜ.

ʟᴏᴏᴋɪɴɢ ғᴏʀ: Rᴇᴀʟʟʏ, ɪғ ʏᴏᴜ ʟɪᴋᴇ ᴀɴʏᴛʜɪɴɢ ʏᴏᴜ sᴇᴇ ʜᴇʀᴇ, ᴀᴅᴅ ᴍᴇ!  Lᴇᴛ's ᴄʜᴀᴛ ᴀʙᴏᴜᴛ ᴛʜɪɴɢs ᴡᴇ sʜᴀʀᴇ ɪɴ ᴄᴏᴍᴍᴏɴ (ᴏʀ ɴᴏᴛ)! Eᴠᴇɴ ɪғ ᴛʜᴇʀᴇ's ɴᴏᴛʜɪɴɢ ʜᴇʀᴇ ᴛʜᴀᴛ ʏᴏᴜ ʟɪᴋᴇ, ᴍᴀʏʙᴇ ᴍʏ ᴘᴇʀsᴏɴᴀʟɪᴛʏ ʜᴀs sᴇᴇᴘᴇᴅ ᴛʜʀᴜ ᴡᴇʟʟ ᴇɴᴏᴜɢʜ ᴀɴᴅ ʏᴏᴜ'ʀᴇ ɪᴍᴘʀᴇssᴇᴅ ᴀɴᴅ ᴡᴀɴᴛ ᴛᴏ ʙᴇ ғʀɪᴇɴᴅs - ʟᴇᴛ's ᴅᴏ ɪᴛ! I'ᴍ ᴠᴇʀʏ ғʀɪᴇɴᴅʟʏ ᴀɴᴅ ᴜɴᴅᴇʀsᴛᴀɴᴅɪɴɢ. Sᴏᴍᴇᴛɪᴍᴇs I'ᴍ ғᴜɴɴʏ. Bᴜᴛ I'ᴍ ᴀʟᴡᴀʏs ᴡɪʟʟɪɴɢ ᴛᴏ ʟɪsᴛᴇɴ ɪғ ʏᴏᴜ ɴᴇᴇᴅ ɪᴛ. Wᴇ'ʀᴇ ᴀʟʟ ɢᴏɪɴɢ ᴛʜʀᴜ sᴛᴜғғ ᴀɴᴅ sᴜᴘᴘᴏʀᴛ ɪs ɴɪᴄᴇ. I ᴄᴀɴ'ᴛ sᴀʏ ʜᴏᴡ ᴏғᴛᴇɴ I'ʟʟ ᴜᴘᴅᴀᴛᴇ ʙᴜᴛ I ᴀʟᴡᴀʏs ʀᴇᴀᴅ ᴀɴᴅ ᴄᴏᴍᴍᴇɴᴛ!
 
ᴀɴʏᴛʜɪɴɢ ᴇʟsᴇ: I'ᴍ sᴛɪʟʟ ɪɴ ᴛʜᴇ ᴘʀᴏᴄᴇss ᴏғ sᴇᴛᴛɪɴɢ ᴍʏ ʙʟᴏɢ ᴜᴘ ᴀɴᴅ ɢᴇᴛᴛɪɴɢ ᴇᴠᴇʀʏᴛʜɪɴɢ ɢᴏɪɴɢ, ʙᴜᴛ! ᴘʟᴇᴀsᴇ ᴘᴏɪɴᴛ ᴍᴇ ɪɴ ᴛʜᴇ ᴅɪʀᴇᴄᴛɪᴏɴ ᴏғ ᴀ ɢᴏᴏᴅ ʀᴘɢ (ʜᴇʀᴇ ᴏʀ ᴇʟsᴇᴡʜᴇʀᴇ, I'ᴍ ғᴜʟʟʏ ɪɴᴠᴇsᴛᴇᴅ ɪɴ ᴊᴏɪɴɪɴɢ ᴛʜᴇ ᴄᴏᴍᴍᴜɴɪᴛʏ ᴀɢᴀɪɴ!) ᴀɴᴅ I'ʟʟ ʀᴇᴛᴜʀɴ ʏᴏᴜʀ ᴋɪɴᴅɴᴇss ᴡɪᴛʜ ʟɪɴᴋs ᴛᴏ ᴛʜᴇ ᴀʙsᴏʟᴜᴛᴇ ʙᴇsᴛ ᴘᴜᴘᴘʏ ᴠɪᴅᴇᴏs ᴇᴠᴇʀ! Wᴇʟʟ, ᴇᴠᴇɴ ɪғ ʏᴏᴜ ᴄᴀɴ'ᴛ I'ʟʟ sᴛɪʟʟ sᴇɴᴅ ᴛʜᴇᴍ ᴛᴏ ʏᴀ. ;)

 
 
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15 August 2017 @ 02:59 pm
If I buy a car and then decide to leave the country next year, what the fuck will I do?

Changed my mind. Decided to focus on TEFL/PMP/CNA/Nursing Prerequisites. Chill on Khan Academy a lot this year, get my UK passport.

If I'm going abroad next year I won't need a car. If I'm not, I can get a car then.

As a bonus, if I'm making 17+/hour at both jobs, I'll have a lot of money to put down on a car next year.
 
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15 August 2017 @ 12:20 am
I have a lot of short shifts at Ralphs this week. Thank God. I'm so tired. Plus I'm going to be looking at cars. I'm going to print the detailed information from the CostCo Connect. For some reason the Ontario location sells it much cheaper than Irvine. I keep being conflicted about buying a car right now and trying to wait. First, because I like the Outback slightly more than the Crosstrek (this will sound petty, but it mostly comes down to the gear shifts. The Crosstrek tries to mimic the look of a stick shift and I think it looks ugly. The Outback doesn't.)

If Linda asks me to take over the Starbucks department - technically a demotion from cashier, but I'd get paid more and finally be made full-time*, then I feel like I should take it** and go ahead and get the Outback.

Otherwise, stick with the Crosstrek.

* Cashiers get paid more in the long run, but it takes five years to max out. If I'm 'demoted' to GM manager, I get topped-out GM pay at $16-17/hour. So I'm considered higher-tier than a Starbucks manager right now, but I only make $11/hour.

** I'm not a full-time cashier. The plan was to train me for Sales Manager, at which point I'd be full-time. But if I were Starbucks Manager, I'd be made full-time, and given $16-17/hour. If I can still be moved back to cashier long-term, I would not lose my pay or full-time status.

Side Note: It would also be easier to do Safety Coaching, since I'd have my own email and my EUID would be given higher-level authorization. It would also be much easier to do some classes because I'd write my own schedule. Life would suck, but the payoff would have more potential.




This sounds so stupid, but I really just want a friend I could spoon with right now. Well, not right now. I mean when I'm trying to sleep during the day. I've started getting more physically affectionate with people (e.g. Head on shoulder) because the urge to cuddle is so bad.

I'm not sure it would work out as well as I imagine it in my head. Usually it's harder to sleep when spooning. I actually prefer to sleep alone. One problem I have with the idea of dating or getting married is the idea of having to share a bed. But there is this really overwhelming urge lately. I don't think it's sexual. I think it's just stress.

None of my friends are snugglers anymore than I normally I am, though. I can't even imagine how I'd phrase that text message: "Hey, wanna watch some Hulu while I sleep curled up with you like a cat? Or hey. Do you just want to hang out and take a nap?"

If I write that to someone asking if I want to hang out they're going to think I'm joking and the sad part is I only wish I were joking.
 
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14 August 2017 @ 10:34 am
So this happened last week (tw: violence.) 

It's incredibly sad that things have come to this.  The fact that Neo Nazi groups can march in the streets, and harm people and our sorry excuse for a President won't call them what they are.  It's incredibly frustrating seeing this all unfold.  It also makes me afraid of the inevitable violence that might take place in the future after this. I do not understand people with this much hate in their hearts for whole groups of people.  It must be a miserable existence.  

In a way I saw it coming with the rise of MRA's/MGTOW/The Red Pill and similar groups that were literally being recruited on reddit before the election took place.  All these groups are connected make no mistake.  They share a similar hatred for women, minorities, LGBTQ, and others that are not like them.  Stormfront was literally going on these subs and recruiting members for their cause.  They've been planning this for a while.  It's still awful to see it take place in real time.  I feel like I'm stuck in a time warp back into the 1950's.  Also Texas has the highest concentration of hate groups out of any state in the US. That makes me very afraid.  I don't want to live in fear, but it seems we've reached that point in our country.  
 
 
: In Flames - Moonshield
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14 August 2017 @ 11:08 am
NAME: Samantha
AGE: 49

Describe yourself in five sentences or less: I'm a scientist and a teacher but nothing like you imagine when you hear those two words. I'm the sort of walking contradiction who wears flouncy dresses with leather jackets and biker boots. Think of me as another cute blonde woman at your peril - my passions in life are physics, engineering and mechanics closely followed by tasty baked goods, especially cupcakes. My brother says my motto in life is "she's beauty, she's grace, she'll punch you in the face" and he experienced many of those punches when we were in the single digits!

Top 5 Fandoms: Doctor Who
Justice League
Star Trek
Star Wars
Anything with George Clooney in it
(I also love to watch bad sci-fi to mock it!)

I mostly post about: I've not really posted much but I'm expecting I'll post about science, books, dresses, rugby, shoes, science fiction and cupcakes. I will definitely talk about my family - mostly my husband and girlfriend.
 
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13 August 2017 @ 11:57 pm
I'm seriously thinking about getting (as in, starting to scout around for prices) a Subaru. I was debating between a Crosstrek and an Outback. But the only reason I'd need an Outback is if I ever had kids and they were ten and older. So. Crosstrek, and then if I ever have kids in the future I can look at getting a new car when they're older.

The only thing that has me on the fence about it are thoughts like, "What if I decide to move out of the country in the next few years?" But the reality is the chances of that are slim. Also, if I start dating, it's going to be nicer to have a car that can take me out on the types of dates I actually want to go on (outdoor/adventure activities.) If I decided to move and had a career that allowed me to, I could transport or sell the car. Subarus have great resell value.

Of course, people might question my mental stability since I want to get the Sunset Orange one. But that's neither here nor there. Plus, I feel like if I'm ever being sucked into a mudslide I'll appreciate that visibility.

I'm not actually sure whether I'd get approved for a car loan right now. My credit rating's good, but not excellent, plus I need to pay down some revolving debt. But I also heavily suspect I'll end up being made Starbucks manager, because they've already burned through two.

Having control over my schedule would be pretty powerful, even if literally everything else about it would suck. I want to do the ROP courses for Medical Assistant and Nursing Essentials. It's too late to change my availability for this round. But if I was making 17.75/hour at one job and 17/hour at the other, I'd be making more than enough to pay all my stuff down, save money, etc.

I'm trying to practice my Italian at work, but I'm too worried about waking up clients. I thought it would help with the medical language course, too, alas. I'd have to to to the tech room. I prefer being around where the clients are lest anything occur.
 
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12 August 2017 @ 11:47 pm
Jessica and I got together today to go to the 'Watermelon Festival' at Tanaka Farms (second time this week! We've been busy. Earlier this week it was to practice for an interview.)

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I'm thinking getting a CRUNCH gym membership (where Wendy works out) so we can work out together. It's actually got a $10/month option. I'd keep my 24 hour membership, I think, but that's very tempting.

I'm also thinking about biting the bullet and getting a new car. If Ralphs promotes me to Starbucks Dept. Manager (Tyler is leaving and I'm honestly not sure how else they'd fill it since it's so hard to get those full) I'm definitely getting a new car to ease my pain.
 
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12 August 2017 @ 12:47 am
Today went pretty well. I showed a funny video to a lot of people (my battery was almost dead, so I didn't show everyone.)

Mom called and I spoke with my grandparents, Siobhan, and Alastair. Since Father Dan has known me since I was born and has been a friend of the family since before I was born, we've decided we'll talk to him about getting my British and Irish passport. Guess in the meantime I'll work on PMP and nurse prerequisite coursework. That way in the future if I want to move over there, I don't have to be broke.

I showed the girls from Luna Grill the video as well (like I said, I love them - they're great people - I just never learn their names because they order in a big group.) So (predictably, to be honest) minutes after talking to them, Jordan texts me continuing on from the last conversation we had.

I don't like that. He can only be bothered to talk to me when he's at work. So, I didn't bother responding. I was busy talking to my family, anyway. Maybe I'll respond during a slow period at work, like on a break. I have to decide what boundaries there are for him and then set them. But maybe that's actually the ideal situation - a sort of pen-pal scenario.




Jessica wouldn't like the video, but tomorrow we're going to a watermelon festival. Mostly to find yellow watermelon.




I rang up a celebrity today but I had no idea til some other customers started asking to take selfies with her. Some character from The Office.
 
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10 August 2017 @ 07:01 pm
ASL: 33/F/Canada

Interests: I write. I've been writing fanfic off-and-on for 20 years, though all of the fruits but the latest were long ago flushed down the Internet's vast series of tubes. Like so many, I'm sitting on a pile of original stories in the prewriting stage, to which I'm willing to devote the rest of my life, starting tomorrow. On the side I draw and vid a bit. I'm interested in politics defensively: I support freedom of expression and can be described as classically liberal. I don't meditate or read as much as I should, though I maintain a shrine and I collect books favoring weird and scary ideas: sci-fi, horror, philosophy, science, some fantasy. Poe, Lovecraft, Dick, Wells, Adams, Vonnegut, Wilde, Baum, more. I tentatively embrace psychedelics. While I can only play the piano a little and I only sing when I'm in the shower, music is the air my brain breathes. I love to dance: no partner, no rules. I like symphonic, progressive and neoclassical metal (in that order), also symphonies by themselves, and lots of other music. I've seen Nightwish in concert twice, met them once, and will be seeing them again next year. I enjoy browsing and curating at DeviantArt. I've got some more interests listed under my deviantID there.

Fandoms: In the past I was hugely into XFiles, Final Fantasy 8, Torchwood and Doctor Who. Now it's Stranger Things and Game of Thrones. I'm currently studying The Picture of Dorian Gray, as I'm working on something related to it. I've spent thousands of hours playing vidyagames whose fandoms I've never touched. I'm always in love with an evolving handful of actors, who are able to do beautifully in front of millions what I must do alone in the dark. The latest is Kit Harington, because I just found out we have the same favourite book: Nineteen Eighty Four (Orwell's prose is an essential nutrient). Also because of the pouty face. Is Jordan B. Peterson a fandom? I'm in that one too.

Why Dreamwidth: I grew up on angelfire and LJ. Currently I find most online places, especially social media places, to be impersonal, divisive, anti-intellectual and vulnerable to the tyrannies of moderators and majorities. I'm sick of likes, I'm sick of upvotes, I never really 'got' reblogs, and I'm sick of once-chronological feeds now being reordered by propagandistic, panopticonic algorithms. I'd rather have my discussions influenced by participants than by points awarded by uninvolved spectators and bias-confirming AI. It seems to me that online friendships have widely been replaced by online clans and mobs, and that self-interested conglomerates are deliberately feeding these divisions for financial gain. It sucks. It's alienating. It's suffocating. It makes me lonely.

Personal life: I live in a rented house, down the road from a university that I dropped out of a decade ago due to its corrupt and incompetent Humanities department and my own need to ogle gay guys while drunk and high. I have a beautiful long-haired muscly fiancee, two squishy chirpy cats, and a vegetable garden full of cucumbers and cherry tomatoes. I might be getting married in October, not that there's money for a wedding. I collect cheap makeup and temporary tattoos, I make peasant skirts and curtains out of bedsheets, I shop at Goodwill, I pay buskers. I get around on a bicycle and I move very heavy things around for health and hotness a few times a week. I'm estranged from my family of origin because my parents, especially my mother, were abusive toward me when I knew them. I may not be a team player but I don't weild torches, pitchforks or molotovs either. I manage intense emotion by articulating its causes as accurately as I can. I am undisciplined and unemployable. I have been misdiagnosed with several mental disorders by inept and greedy pill-pushers. I don't have anxiety, I am sometimes afraid because I'm affected by the human condition. I don't play diagnosis pokemon or identity pokemon. I wear the Auryn. My religion is fiction. My god is beauty. My moral compass is moved by suffering, compassion, truth and meaning.

What I'll journal about: I'll probably write more about my mental life than my personal life. Opinions, questions, vulnerabilities, complaints, recommendations, conundrums, philosophies, criticisms. The specifics are up in the air. And I'm sure there'll be more fanfic too.

What I'm looking for: Writers, individuals, creatives, truth tellers, smartypantses, down to earthers and jokers. If you're interested in what I'm interested in we're golden.
 
 
 
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